你是否碰上这样的处境
"你把某人当成心里很重要 很在乎的 把对方当成知己
却赫然发现 在对方眼里 你只是 极其普通的朋友"
那一天 游览着insta
我庆幸 你看穿 我的忧伤
2013年1月4日星期五
My final project T_T
Trying to hold myself from crying
But that is just too hurt
My supervisor told me to formulate the API as effervescent few weeks past on 12.12.12
I still remembered how shocked am I that moment
How to do? What to do? i got only theoretical knowledge about effervescent tablet
As during practicum time we have only learnt about normal tablet ><
I was scratching my head, so frustrated that time
Practicing on how to do nanoemulsion
The moment while waiting for 2 hours stirring
I always rush here and there, to the library to the computer room and lab
Trying to get more info on effervescent tablet
Well, I finally figured out the concept, the excipients used, also the proposed formula
Although my supervisor wanted just the presentation
I even did my proposal, followed all the guidelines of our final thesis
And at the meantime, i did emailed my supervisor, told her about my progress
Finally, it comes to the presentation
Supposingly to be held in evening, it is way so sudden that i received a text at 7am,
Informed that the presentation has been changed to 9am
Well, i still can handle it, even i had stayed up till 330am and just slept for few hours
Its my turn to present first before a local student did
The presentation went quite good overall
And my supervisor just hope that we can really understood well and master about our topic
Then, it came to the last part which is the method/ procedure
This comes the conversation:
"Ibu, I am not really sure about this procedure i found.. And i can`t really find much detailed info about it"
"You never learnt it during solid lab time?"
"We only learnt about normal tablet, not effervescent"
"You can try to find from the practical guide......"
That`s how my presentation has ended
And next, is the presentation of a local student
I am a little hurt the way supervisor concentrate on the presentation of this local student
And how she act during my presentation....busy pressing handphone......
And she got quite some questions about his presentation, asking this and that
Okay...finally both of our presentation has come to an end...
Then, passing my supervisor the form for getting raw materials and excipients
And asking if she got any PVP as gudang does not have any
Everything still go quite okay, and she even tried to look about the PVP inside her cupboard
Out of a sudden, i realised there is a question i have forgotten to ask
Well, i have totally forgot what is my question as the left memory in my brain is just her answer
"You are doing effervescent tablet?"
"Yea, ibu... Ibu told me last time......"
"No... Just do normal tablet will do"
ZZZZZ!!!!
You never ever get to understand my feeling that moment
That zzzzz feeling....
My presentation, my question, the form of my raw material, and even she tried to find for me
And now this is
"You are doing effervescent tablet?"
What the....
"Do you ever pay attention of what you told me?
What i have present, my question and i did send you email to tell you my progress ><"
Just feeling myself are so stupid enough
It was 12.12.12, your birthday time that you told me to do effervescent tablet
And you never know how much effort i have paid in between.....
....................................................................................................
Am i having a right choice choosing you as my supervisor? >.<
The very first chat i have hesitating
The way you treated local and M`sian
The very first time you ask me to go to your house Saturday to discuss about my final project
I went there 45 minutes earlier... Worried of texting you too earlier, i waited outside,
Just at the side of road for half an hour...
Then, i texted you 15 minutes before the actual meeting time, telling i have arrived
And another 15 minutes waiting, till the watch strikes exactly 12 noon that you came out and open the door
Well, is my own fault for being there so early.. I understood
I appreciate your willingness to spend me some time on Saturday
I really did
Around 10 minutes discussion...
You opened the door, telling me this "I am sorry, I could not send you down, my child is at home alone"
Ha........ha....................
*It is just less than 3 min drive to send me down where the angkut can reached*
Here it goes... I waited outside, at the roadside again for another 20 minutes.. waiting any bike pass by which can give me a ride
I am wondering... do you ever know, my supervisor...
That your house is just too far inside from the main road, its my first time been at such a strange and quiet place, and it is just hard for me to walk down? >.<
Well, i tried to understand all these....
When one of the senior told about your stories and I understood your feeling of being....
And that`s the reason you always over care about your children in my point of view
But all of these are just too much for me now...
Remind me of what happened today, at that Saturday,
Few times you texted me to meet you and i rush to your office once i received the msg, waited there, finally texted you and you told me
"You do not turn up just now and now i have leave again"
But that is just too hurt
My supervisor told me to formulate the API as effervescent few weeks past on 12.12.12
I still remembered how shocked am I that moment
How to do? What to do? i got only theoretical knowledge about effervescent tablet
As during practicum time we have only learnt about normal tablet ><
I was scratching my head, so frustrated that time
Practicing on how to do nanoemulsion
The moment while waiting for 2 hours stirring
I always rush here and there, to the library to the computer room and lab
Trying to get more info on effervescent tablet
Well, I finally figured out the concept, the excipients used, also the proposed formula
Although my supervisor wanted just the presentation
I even did my proposal, followed all the guidelines of our final thesis
And at the meantime, i did emailed my supervisor, told her about my progress
Finally, it comes to the presentation
Supposingly to be held in evening, it is way so sudden that i received a text at 7am,
Informed that the presentation has been changed to 9am
Well, i still can handle it, even i had stayed up till 330am and just slept for few hours
Its my turn to present first before a local student did
The presentation went quite good overall
And my supervisor just hope that we can really understood well and master about our topic
Then, it came to the last part which is the method/ procedure
This comes the conversation:
"Ibu, I am not really sure about this procedure i found.. And i can`t really find much detailed info about it"
"You never learnt it during solid lab time?"
"We only learnt about normal tablet, not effervescent"
"You can try to find from the practical guide......"
That`s how my presentation has ended
And next, is the presentation of a local student
I am a little hurt the way supervisor concentrate on the presentation of this local student
And how she act during my presentation....busy pressing handphone......
And she got quite some questions about his presentation, asking this and that
Okay...finally both of our presentation has come to an end...
Then, passing my supervisor the form for getting raw materials and excipients
And asking if she got any PVP as gudang does not have any
Everything still go quite okay, and she even tried to look about the PVP inside her cupboard
Out of a sudden, i realised there is a question i have forgotten to ask
Well, i have totally forgot what is my question as the left memory in my brain is just her answer
"You are doing effervescent tablet?"
"Yea, ibu... Ibu told me last time......"
"No... Just do normal tablet will do"
ZZZZZ!!!!
You never ever get to understand my feeling that moment
That zzzzz feeling....
My presentation, my question, the form of my raw material, and even she tried to find for me
And now this is
"You are doing effervescent tablet?"
What the....
"Do you ever pay attention of what you told me?
What i have present, my question and i did send you email to tell you my progress ><"
Just feeling myself are so stupid enough
It was 12.12.12, your birthday time that you told me to do effervescent tablet
And you never know how much effort i have paid in between.....
....................................................................................................
Am i having a right choice choosing you as my supervisor? >.<
The very first chat i have hesitating
The way you treated local and M`sian
The very first time you ask me to go to your house Saturday to discuss about my final project
I went there 45 minutes earlier... Worried of texting you too earlier, i waited outside,
Just at the side of road for half an hour...
Then, i texted you 15 minutes before the actual meeting time, telling i have arrived
And another 15 minutes waiting, till the watch strikes exactly 12 noon that you came out and open the door
Well, is my own fault for being there so early.. I understood
I appreciate your willingness to spend me some time on Saturday
I really did
Around 10 minutes discussion...
You opened the door, telling me this "I am sorry, I could not send you down, my child is at home alone"
Ha........ha....................
*It is just less than 3 min drive to send me down where the angkut can reached*
Here it goes... I waited outside, at the roadside again for another 20 minutes.. waiting any bike pass by which can give me a ride
I am wondering... do you ever know, my supervisor...
That your house is just too far inside from the main road, its my first time been at such a strange and quiet place, and it is just hard for me to walk down? >.<
Well, i tried to understand all these....
When one of the senior told about your stories and I understood your feeling of being....
And that`s the reason you always over care about your children in my point of view
But all of these are just too much for me now...
Remind me of what happened today, at that Saturday,
Few times you texted me to meet you and i rush to your office once i received the msg, waited there, finally texted you and you told me
"You do not turn up just now and now i have leave again"
习惯
难过时 压力时 受创 受重重打击时
总是习惯着 打开某些folder
总是习惯着 打开某些folder
欣赏着 重复翻阅着 那一张张 照片
里头 总是有自己爱不释手的珍品
里头 总是有自己爱不释手的珍品
有着 他人珍送的礼物
有着 怀念 某人某事的照片
有着 怀念 某人某事的照片
-相同一张照片-
我记得 那一天 在机场 离开前
犹豫了好久 终于用剩下的零钱拨通的 那一通电话
我记得 听到你的声音 我害怕得说不出话来
傻傻的 一直到你盖上了电话
终于 又挣扎了很久 拨了第二通
"喂 是我"
"谁?"
才发现 你已再也认不得我的声音
"谢谢你的鸡翅膀"
"喔! X忆? "
这是我们之间沟通的方式
我知道 那一天 鸡翅膀 是我的专利
我说 "我要回印尼去了 在机场"
你说了些什么
我真的记不得
一直到了 盖上电话的那一刻
我还是很模糊
太久违的声音
我只沉浸在你那把 似熟悉却陌生的声音里
隐隐约约 听到你说
"去到印尼 好好读书......照顾自己"
...................................................................................
你还好吗? 应该很好吧?
我们之间 回不了过去 到不了未来
现在这样的模式 不联络 不探听你的消息
偶尔 想着你
还算不错
我的 青梅竹马!
我曾经 把你当成我的白马王子
告诉自己 以后非你不嫁
告诉自己 以后非你不嫁
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