维护我的他

最近 在面纸书

看到了

某男人 维护着自己的女人

在他的朋友数落他女人不是时

竟然 会让我觉得莫名地感动

仔细想想

有几个男人能做到?

至少 我觉得

他不会

他的朋友 永远都比我重要

或许 当事情发生时

他只会保持沉默

Hmm...

我希望 身边会有 那么一个

维护我的他 或她

在某人数落我的不是时

会有那爱我的他 还是好友

极力反驳

至少为我解释清楚实情

而不是参上一角

是否存在着那么一个?

 深爱着晴天娃娃

我相信 它总能让我带上好心情

Soon :(

Less than 1 year

Around 8months more

Our relationship will turn into this
=Long Distance=
Just like the 1st part of the video

Sincerely
I hate it!

I ever say
"I never want this kind of relationship"
"I will relatively choosing to break up instead of facing these"
"I will not able to face and cope with the MISS deep inside heart"

Yet
I know
When that day arrives
I will choose to believe one more time in love
To believe once again that guys can be rely and trust on

Not willing to think, to imagine

what will happen between us in future
There are too lots of obstacles we need to go through
There are too lots of MISS, LONELY and others kind feelings

We need to get use and take it

Hopefully

We can still hold each other tight
till the end of life

I wish !

A Gu

He is at the hospital now

Because fell down and hurt his leg
Need to put in metal inside his leg

Waiting at the hospital for operation

But it keeps on postpone

the date for operation

Hate it to max !
Thats the local hospital in Malaysia

I really really hate it!

I have been waiting till wednesday
Wanna know his news
But when Wednesday comes
It postponed to Friday again!
SHIT!

He born with some mental disorder
No matter how others look down upon him
He is always my 'a gu'
I ever remembered how he being bullied at my school area
How i scolded those stupid people

HMMP :(

I hope I am rich enough
Is an elderly
And at Malaysia now

So that i can stay beside him
At least able to visit him
And most important
Transfer him to the private hospital

According to sis
Doctor called yesterday, for some matter
And ask for the visit

Praying hard *

Sweet *@^

Sometimes

Just feel that it is so sweet

when saw the comment of others with their lovely one

"I miss you"

it becomes *aww, so sweet!

 when someone reply
"I miss you more" in return

Or the sentence "I love you"

becomes amazingly sweet

when the person replied in

"Love you more"

Sometimes

I feel jealous when someone I really care

Never told me this

Indeed to others

Sometimes

I hope there is someone

care of me, more than I did

miss me, more than I did

love me, more than I did

and he/ she really meant it !

他不想和我结婚

不知道 这是部怎样的电影

希望 不错=D

预告中的其中一幕

让我 略有所思

"如果 哪天 我想结婚了

那在我身边的他

却 没有相同的想法 心情

我 会怎样?"

想了 好久 蛮久

结论是

如果哪天

真的到了 结婚的年龄

他却 毫无表示

我想

我应该会离开他吧!

或许 这是糟透的分手理由

=他不想和我结婚=

可是一个 没打算着与你共结连理 的男人

凭着什么

继续耗着 自己的青春

*是老了吗? 最近都觉得 女人的青春 真的不长久*

更不想卑微的等待

等待着 他酝酿着想婚的心情

等待着 他做好告别单身生活的准备

等待着 他向我求婚

这像是不能掌控的人生

世界那么大

我相信

总会找到 那一个

爱自己 疼惜自己

愿意与自己 共结连理 的男人

2nd Year Anniversary

2nd Year

5th October 2011

We celebrated it together

Yea

Just like what others told

"It is not easy"

He is my personal chef in this special day

With mostly all my lovely dishes

*prawn, sotong and 滑蛋河*

^^

With the section of gift exchange

His present

=Alexandre Chirstie Watch=

*Pricey*

Haha

With his blur gf who didnt know how to use this

And let him to figure out by himself

LOL

His gf is really not 体贴

No choice 

This is her nature XD

As for my present

* will be uploaded in different post ^^

透透气

最近

想去旅行的欲望

好浓烈

昨夜

梦见自己 和他

在台湾

前几个星期

在发'马尔代夫' 的白日梦

那天 我说

"我们去马六甲咯!"

一日游 还是过夜

你驾车 还是搭巴士

不管怎样 都好!

"那里 蛮美啊"

其实 我只是单纯的

想和他坐一次

River cruise

我喜欢 那沿途的夜景

他很干脆的就说 "好!"

有点受宠若惊 =D

却发现

要等到 明年 raya break才有机会

如果他 10月毕业

明年圣诞节 才有机会了

是有那么 一点点难受 :(

他毕业后

我们 一星期一次的见面

考试 很忙其间 两星期一次的见面

就要 延长 延长到 半年

诚实的说

我受不了

这样的恋爱模式

要怎样熬过去

真的 没任何头绪

现今的

一星期一次

或两星期一次 见面

都会让我

在和朋友出街时 看电影时

在看着那一对对的情侣

眼角不自觉地 泛起泪光

苦恼着 难过着

他怎么 不在 :(

心投诉说

它想透透气了

就算是一日游

就算是很近很近的地方

就只要 离开束缚着的城堡 

一天 都好!

Can you feel it?

You never know how much I care

Though I miss the past so much, too much

Though I miss M sometimes

I did

Miss and care about you

Me and him

The memories aren't that easy to be erase

He was there

In my life

For more than 15 years

He was the person I fall in love for the first time

He was the person make me believe in princess

He was the person who ever gave me fairy-tale love

He was my first love

He is the reason

For i don't trust in long lasting relationship

He is the reason

For i felt so unsecured

He is the reason

Yet

If you ever track in my life

If you ever step in my heart

You will know

You will feel

There are so many feelings i hide
There are so many words i never voice out

Sometimes I just pretended

For i don't care

So that you will never know how much i hurt

Whenever you leave

I did
I do
I will still

Love you

总会有那么一个

我知道

我总会遇到

那么一个

像Damon一样

在我闹情绪时

紧紧抱着我

任我打 任我骂

在我气消了

质问我

"闹够了没"

阻止我做傻事的

男人

我知道

未来的我

一定会遇到

那个 懂我的 爱我的

不是　不想

很多时候　就真的只能　笑着提起

隐藏着那苦涩的感受

有时侯　真的希望

有段　正常点的感情

再忙　至少都有封信息　有通来电

我－－他

总是能　几天都不联络　可怜得一封信息都没有

一年里　煲电话粥的次数　５指手指能数得清

有好多次　按下了那电话号码

却反复的挣扎了好久

都没勇气　按下接通按钮

感觉上　那数得清的５次里

４次都是来自于我

累了?　倦了?

有时侯　真的希望　来自于他　多些的联系

他说

庆幸着　我是不太粘人的另一半

我说

这是被训练出来的

不依赖

有时候
真的不得不嘲笑自己
爱上的男人
都是有那么一丁点－－－冷

声音

有时侯
只是单纯的想
想要听到别人说话的声音

希望

陪伴的
不再只是歌曲