i need someone for me

i need someone to tell
who can i tell these?

i cant login my school webpage to view my result
i know my password
i din type the wrong nim
but i just cant login
3 type errors
i really cant login now
"can see ur result now?"
"ok ady?"
how many times i had told mum
but she just keep asking
"no"
"no"
"no"
"i cant even see ady..i ady type 3 times..now cannot login ady!"
how many times i need to tell?
i JUST CANT LOGIN!!!!!!!!!!

stop asking please..
please....


who can i tell these..
i need my result urgently to apply loan?
who can i tell these...
i need tat so much
i want tat so much

i asked my bf to help me take result
who can i tell these?
it seems impossible as ibu lucy is thr..
how could he represent me?

my mum said she could accompany go take result 2morrow~
who can i tell these..
2morrow is for 2nd year to take their result!
will ibu lucy let us to get it 2morrow?
who can i tell these...

my mum asked me to ask my bf to fetch me go nugrahan to take result..
who can i tell these..?
he is going v his parents..
it is not suit for us to be in same car~
who can i tell these..

my mum said wanna take the result 2morrow..
how if both of us de parents meet thr?
who can i tell these?
both of us actually scare of our parents get to meet
it seems like we r going to marry!

who can i tell these all>?
who can i tell these...?
i really hv no idea about these all!

who can i tell these all?

i really need someone to talk...
i really need someone beside..
i need, SOMEONE..

我想他

我想他..
另一个他~
真的想念了...

虽然删除了他, 却免不了依旧会去看他fb的习惯..
庆幸的是: 我依旧能看到他的post,有关他的心情..
有时侯,
我真有想回他的冲动..
却总会克制下来..
因为我清楚知道, 他不要我出现!
他不要我出现在他的视力范围内,
他不要有我的声音,我的讯息!
他不要我干扰他的生活!

我不能为他做什么..
就只能配合他..
离他远远的~
可..
我的心..却是伤的~

他要到何时才能清醒,才能振作?
我想告诉他:
those r really happy becoz they din stay at the past, but learn to accept and face the truth. then, they could start a new,happy life!
我心疼他...

我快回去印尼了..

最大的心愿..
我想见你!

我知道不可能..
可是..
这就是我的心愿..
也是我唯一的遗憾!

我想你..
能让我见一见你吗>?

我想你......

有时候,
我讨厌念旧的自己!

I cry

I cried recently
be4 i slept
I wondered y
but i was thinking too much every night

last night
I cried
for something not yet happen

thinking of v r going to separate apart
thinking of there left only 2 years i could be v him
thinking of v might be broken up

Ｉcried

the scene appeared in my mind
just like it is the truth
it made me feel so bad, so sad

he will be going to singapore after 1 year work for government
when i will be back to malaysia
that means
v r going to separate apart again

i respect his decision
and i hv no any reason to reject it

but i was sad
really sad actually
but i cant tell him my feelings
haha !
i want him to go thr freely, happily
without any worries on me

BUT i know well that
i will not live well

actually
i dont hv confident
as what he said, singapore de girls all pretty pretty de
i dont hv confident
on long distance relationship
i dont hv confident
on myself
as i feel lonely easily
and i need someone beside me as well
so do him
we might fall in love with someone else

i scare
that v will become so strange after v separate apart
just like what i felt on my friends now
i scare
next time v meet
there will be no more same topic between us
i scare
time faded our love

there are so many worriness hide deeply inside me

i even thinking of "should we broken up 1st be4 we separate apart?"
haha!

I am thinking too much recently
I am worrying too much recently

my dear
could we be together forever?

is HARD to tell this, rite?
as no one knows whats going on in the future ><

dear..
BUT i hope v can prove the meaning of "FOREVER" together

无辜的牺牲品

一场爱情的终结..
没想到~
也是另一段感情的句点..

而我.
就是那场灿烂的爱情宣告结束后-
的.无辜牺牲品~

泪水..
随着那信息的打开..
顺而流下~
你不懂..
在那当下, 我有多心疼
在那当下, 我有多心酸

一些话..
你说得理所当然
却是我的致命伤.

被人抛来了一个莫须有的罪名
我.被判入十八层地狱
从此不被理睬..
那是种怎样的心情-你.懂吗?

我以为不会这样的~
我以为在爱情画为0 时
还能回到最初的原点..
我错了..
错的离谱..
天真的以为,那不会影响啥..

我好想骂你..

骂你怎么那么不分青红皂白
骂你怎么能那么自私
骂你怎么胡乱的为我套上罪名

那是你所谓的公平-----
真的是这样吗?
那是..不公吧!

我宁愿你是真的很忙..
虽然.我懂,
"如果有心, 再忙都会挪出些时间,除非你.不想"
然而..
我却有努力欺骗自己,你-真的太忙的理由

那是你所谓的公平----
却不知道最令我痛心~

原来..
我们之间..
的那段感情..
是虚假的~

因为.我们间的感情是那么轻易的被放弃
因为.我是那么容易的就能被你割舍

虚假的感情
做作的关怀
虚情假意的爱惜

认清了..

我能做啥?

放开我的手..
放开你.
让一切随风逝去..

我能做啥?

在爱情里头.
在男人'紧要关头,最能被遗弃'的排行榜里头
我排行-第一
我就是那第一件最能被舍弃的物品

在感情里头..
我-依旧不逊色 !

有哪一次?
是例外的?
有哪一次?
我是被人紧紧守着?
最不能抛弃的?
有哪一次?
会有人为了我的存在,抛弃他人?
哈!
没有!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我就是那能轻易取得,能轻易踢开的物品
我总是那无辜的牺牲品

哈! ><
抛弃我吧!

ps:
7月9日
我被抛弃了
在M生日的那一天
双重的悲伤

我..
放开M了
你..
我依旧需要时间