I cry

I cried recently
be4 i slept
I wondered y
but i was thinking too much every night

last night
I cried
for something not yet happen

thinking of v r going to separate apart
thinking of there left only 2 years i could be v him
thinking of v might be broken up

Ｉcried

the scene appeared in my mind
just like it is the truth
it made me feel so bad, so sad

he will be going to singapore after 1 year work for government
when i will be back to malaysia
that means
v r going to separate apart again

i respect his decision
and i hv no any reason to reject it

but i was sad
really sad actually
but i cant tell him my feelings
haha !
i want him to go thr freely, happily
without any worries on me

BUT i know well that
i will not live well

actually
i dont hv confident
as what he said, singapore de girls all pretty pretty de
i dont hv confident
on long distance relationship
i dont hv confident
on myself
as i feel lonely easily
and i need someone beside me as well
so do him
we might fall in love with someone else

i scare
that v will become so strange after v separate apart
just like what i felt on my friends now
i scare
next time v meet
there will be no more same topic between us
i scare
time faded our love

there are so many worriness hide deeply inside me

i even thinking of "should we broken up 1st be4 we separate apart?"
haha!

I am thinking too much recently
I am worrying too much recently

my dear
could we be together forever?

is HARD to tell this, rite?
as no one knows whats going on in the future ><

dear..
BUT i hope v can prove the meaning of "FOREVER" together