thanks my dear 17:14-19:35

is worst tis few days...
so unlucky....

and..
today bio quiz result is worst! SHIT!
i ady read de...
i ady start studying quite long..
feeling of dissapointed more than sad..

haizz..
tis few days really 'sui'....
hope to tell someone..
but dun feel like talk back the 'sui' things...

dear..come and find me...
he knows that i sad..
he knows...
he .....realise i am sad...

maybe is becoz when meet him in school today..
i juz finish crying ba~

i din cry out loudly...
juz a few drops of tears rolling down...
no one notice...
i always used to cry silently..

huh...
i am sad...

actually there are many things that happen..
but recently..
i will smile,
whenever my result is worst..
i smile, when i feel very 'wei qu'
i smile, when i feel so much stress..
i can feel my heart is trying very very hard to hold on my feelings...
my true feelings...

thanks my dear....

when i am crying that time....
i m thinking that i can hug him..and cry...
although i din get to hug him that time..
is more than enough as he come to find me after finish class..

my dear....
i juz know that he realise that i do see his blog...
i am trying the best, pretending i din c his blog...
perhaps, i did, everyday...
he says...
many things he din tell me, coz he know i will c from his blog...

hmm....
hmm...

he know it....
haizzz....

actually i juz wan to view his blog silently...
actually..

he knows me well...
although i thought he dunno wat am i thinking of...

but...
the most important things that i hope for...
he dunno....

my wish since long long time ady..
i hope we can go valley...
coz....i never been there before..
and most important..
there is beautiful night view over there...

sometimes...i trying to persue myself that he is busy...
i know he is busy...

but...i still wanna go there..everyday late at night..
when i am lonely...
i always thinking about this...

AND....
i hope that he is not that mature...
coz mature guy...
there are lots of things i need to get used...

BUT...he is very good ler..
much more better than me...
coz i dunno him..
dunno wat he is thinking of...
dunno....dunno dunno..
dunno mostly everything of him...

actually..
something..
i hope he can tell me by his own..
he can tell me...
but it never happen..
actually..
i feel that something juz hard to say, hard to tell....
so thats y he ...
but...girl are juz complicated...
coz although i know the fact,
i still hope that, something...some problems he can tell me by his own..
huh...

complicated mind, complicated feelings....

BUT...
juz wanna sincerely tell him:
"My dear, thank you"
i am much more better now..
after be v u...
after u come and find me....
my dear...
thanks ^^
[although he will never know]