How If?

Yesterday

On the way back from dental

One of my friend asked:

"He is going to graduate soon. Wont you feel scared?"

"Superb!"

"I guess, we will break up soon" I added

"Why?"

"I don`t like long distance relationship

There are too lots of things gonna change

We wont stay long"

Actually it is not the matter of long distance

Actually i am just not confident, not secure enough 

How if he start working?

How if we don't have any same topic anymore?

As what he concern is his work, As for me my studies

How if i can`t understand his burden of work?

How if i can`t share with him, his problem?

How if he found someone who can understand him much more better?
How if we can`t hold each other together, but just can stay close through webcam?

There are too many uncertainties
Life is too unpredictable

It is always the BEST for me
To prepare for the worst
Rather than dreaming on our future ~~

It is always better to standby for he will just leave my life
Than trusting that our love is strong

Sincerely, I am afraid
VERY VERY afraid!