33

Just deleted
33 contacts from my hp
Just realised there are so much bt previous him
His ~12 contact num, as he changed often
His mum, his cousin, his friends........................

Its time to erase everything about him
Every pieces of memories which not belongs to me anymore
Somehow, to be honest
There is a bit reluctant
Somehow....
It is hard to forget

I kept all those for around 7 years
I kept all those sweet memories while we were still child for around 10 years

Even...
i erased the latest msg in friendster which he left for me
bt his sorry...and his hp num
This is to prevent myself to do foolish things when i emo+ing in future
I just want to erase, to avoid any possibilities that we will come in contact again
I just want cut off everything about him

And most important
I just want to be fair, for HIM, my dear
My pity dear....
SORRY

It has been a long time u wait
Wait for me
To put down everything about past
To be confident again

I can promise from the moment onwards
Chase him away from my heart
But keep Only YOU

But...
I am still sorry
I lost my confident
There are too lots bt past

If you are here now
You will see....
my body is  shivering
my heart turns weak
my tears  still falling down
everytime i see, the girl ever stay besides him......
Thats the unsecure feeling which surrounds me again and again.....
I am so nervous....