*count on me*

Hv u ever heard someone told u this before?
*count on me* ?
Or
Hv u ever told someone
*count on me* ?

something knocked me down past 2 days..
some problem..
bout the holidays during raya and my anxiety for bringging some reference books over here..
someone told me this while i felt so helpless
*count on me*

this was the 2nd time she told me this..
and this was the 2nd time she let me down..

i scolded myself actually..
deeply inside my heart today..
for trusting her once again..
for putting the value of trustworthy between our relationships once again

IS HURT, I ADMIT

the 1st time..
i trust her..
that she will bring me the news bt the lab replacement, the studies and exams matter..
i TRUST her, TOTALLY..
she told me and promised me that..
she will called me the next day as her indo sim card had expired..
she promised that..
she will let me know bt those matters very soon..

1 weeks passed..
i din received any news bt that..

u will never get to know..
how was I feeling that time..
U WILL NEVER GET TO KNOW

stressful and anxiety each day..
keep waiting and checking fb, mail, msn each day, each moment..
u will never get to know..
how helpless was I..
and other than waiting..
waiting for her call
waiting for her new hp num..
waiting for her news..
there was nothing i can do..
I WOULD NEVER WANT TO FEEL THIS EVER AGAIN

1 weeks passed..
i begged her, to bring me some news bt those matters..
U WILL NEVER GET TO KNOW HOW I BEGGED HER
I WILL NEVER WANT TO EXPERIENCE ANYMORE
then..
i asked for others help..
they had even give me some news bt those matters..
but, neither from her..

few days after that..
only then..
she left me msg for me in fb..
HAHA!
her msg seemed useless for me that moment..
because she will never get to know how was I passing my day, my time...

tats the reason why I kept myself apart from her after my sickness..

SO,
PLEASE DO KEEP UR PROMISES..
and if u cant,
dont give ur PROMISES ~

sem 3..
i tried to talk to her again..
i tried to change us back to the past while we were very close together
as what i had told one of my friend..
that i wished to reach her again, but i felt is tough..
but..i STEPPED OUT!

is that a good start?
or a chance to break my heart again?

2nd time..
*count on me*
she told..

she let me waiting again..

this time..
when i asked her..
she just trying to ask others..

HAHA!
feeling myself as a fool today...

TRUSWORTHY
PROMISES
*COUNT ON ME*
FRIENDSHIP

Someone told me that:
"sometimes u will simply forgive someone because you still want them in your life"