Mr.clock

Mr.clock..
please tick faster..XD
thats most of my friends post..
left one more week,
there will be with their lovely family..

For me..
left one more week, i will not be lonely~
after that..
2 weeks time..i hv to live alone at bandung..
i have to go through every lonely and scary night..
i have to go for each meal alone..
walk alone, watch movie alone..
everything..
crying evrynight, alone..perhaps..
haha XD

soooo sad actually..
soooo scared actually..

Start from the day i knew..
I am the only one in my kost who din bck for raya..
I am the only one who will going to stay at the 3 storey kost..
nervous, lonely`s feelings start arise..

I did not tell my mum about this..
because i dont want to make her worry..
i know, her style..
if she knows about this, no matter how expensive is the flight ticket..
she will let me back home..
sho LOVES me..
i know that so well..

I did not tell my dear about this..
because i do not want to make him worry also..
i want him to back happily, without any worries on me
i want him to gather with his best friends happily..
i dont wish to bother him..
thats why i din tell him..

is worried that he might angry with me if he knows the truth..
is worried that he might blame me for cheating him..

BUT..
i got to know that the ibu and bapak of the kos bck for raya also oni this thursday
i got to know i am the only one who stay at the kost this thursday..
i really dun meant to hide and cheat him..
sorry, dear..
forgive me ....

Be truth..
is nervous, really so nervous..

I sent him a msg the time i got to know the truth..
"dear..give me hug hug after your class today or tomorrow"
i need him that time, so much actually..
haha XD
but i knew it wasnt so easy to study here, at ITB..
he had classes and perhaps assignments..
he might not beside whenever i need..
he might so busy with his stuff..

thats why..
Be Strong, Gal..
i always whisper to myself..